Down on my Knees: The Power of Prayer, Honesty and Acceptance

29 Dec

In the still of the night, down on my knees, praying to a God I’m not sure exists.  Why me?  You get what you give, some say.  What did I give to deserve this?  I gave time, energy, compassion, and unconditional love.  I gave every part of me.  I feel broken-hearted, scared, sad, and angry.  It’s easy to sit on the other side of the fence and judge someone; to say you know how you’d handle it if you were in the same situation.  The truth is, you don’t.  You don’t know until you have experienced it.

Many of us have had that moment, the one you never saw coming.  Or worse, the one you saw coming, but convinced yourself would never come.  The news stops you in your tracks and causes you to reflect on every single thing you have done in your life that’s lead to this moment.  There is nothing you can do to prevent it.  You can’t change it.  You can only try to manage it.

So what do you do then?  The first inclination is to run; to get away from the situation.  The clock on the counter ticks away as you consider how you can possibly move forward.  Paralyzed with fear, you can’t imagine anyone has ever experienced this before.  What do I say to people, you ask yourself?  What will they think? You remember the times that people have said to you, children are a reflection of their parents.  That’s so rewarding to hear when things turn out the way you want.  But what of my child?  He doesn’t mean what he says.  He doesn’t choose the behavior, he didn’t choose the illness, it chose him.  There is fear in his eyes that only a mother notices.  Please, he begs.  But at such a young age, the human mind can’t make sense of why it does what it does.  What comes easy for some will never for others.

Breathe.  It calms you. We often forgot to breathe during the height of exploding emotions. Breathe so that youmight think more clearly.

Submit. The only way out, is to go through it, which requires acceptance of the situation.  It may not be what we envisioned for ourselves.  Life rarely turns out the way we expect.  Every experience is designed to teach us something.  Our job in life is to figure out what that lesson is.

Face judgment.  It’s easy to be quiet about things, for fear someone will judge us.  People will, it’s human nature.  There are those who will never understand.  They say they would do things differently; they lay blame.  But by opening yourself up, many around you will quietly take notice.  They gain strength from your honesty. 

Accept.  These experiences teach you to accept situations you encounter in life.  Strive to come to a place where you never assume you know what’s best for someone.  The only person who knows what’s best for you is you.  That moment that takes your breath away may eventually make you a pillar of strength for someone else.

Choose your attitude.  Scream; scream out loud it’s not fair.  Cry, get it out.  But when you’re done, choose determination.  Choose to believe you can make it.  Play the odds by changing your attitude because believing is the best way to get where you want to go.  Choosing an attitude of despair only produces one result, despair.

We rarely escape that moment, the one that clearly marks two paths.  We can choose the path less traveled.  We can ask ourselves in the very worst moments, for what should I be thankful?  We can remember that we are not the only ones to have had this experience.  There are people around us that have lived through this, and there will be those in the future who will face the same challenges.  We can choose to accept help, to lean on those close to us, to be open about our hurt, our fears, our hopes, and our dreams.  We can trust that there is a reason for everything that happens.  We can choose to kneel and submit, if for no other reason than to accept that there are certain things in life we cannot control.  In the end, the only thing we can control is our attitude, and it’s our attitude that determines our success.

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One Response to “Down on my Knees: The Power of Prayer, Honesty and Acceptance”

  1. Holly Mabery December 29, 2011 at 1:38 pm #

    Thanks for the reminder. I think we forget and forget to let go. Well said.

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